Friday, June 12, 2009

These boots were made for walkin'.....

....and that's just what they'll do. They walked right through graduation last Sunday and right out into Chelsie's life! Oh my, can it be true that my baby has graduated high school, is enrolled in college and will be joining her brother and sister in the world of higher education? Where did time go? It seems like just yesterday that she was poking her little head into Double G customers car windows saying, "Hi! My name's Chelsie. What's your name? Do you have any kids? My dog's name is Harley!" Those of you who know her, know exactly what I'm talking about.

You might not be able to see it, but there is some silly string flying around amongst all the caps.....that's Chelsie and some of her friends!
A:nd what better way to leave high school than in the arms of your best friend and "Nacho" man. ("Nacho" average boyfriend, that is! ;-)
Congratulations baby girl!! Life is a big pair of wide open arms waiting for you! Love you much!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Discovering the Horse Out of Harness

"horse out of harness"....this was a line from a book by Norman Brauer about the camping trips of Henry Ford, Harvey Firestone, Thomas Edison, and John Burroughs. He said in the book that you can learn alot about a man by how they work and by how they play. When I read this line, it went right through me. It immediately had my attention because of the feelings it invoked in me.....the memory of seeing the horses break loose and run free and of their beauty when they were so completely in the moment of running. It resonated within me and I realized there is a longing there for the same thing...for my creative side to be able to break free, to run furiously for all I'm worth, without being harnessed or held back in any way. It has been that rumbling inside me that I couldn't put words to. It is that "something" in the pit of my stomach that keeps rearing up to try to get me to notice.
I haven't ridden horses in such a long time. I think the last ride I was on was during vacation at Hilton Head a few years back. We were there in March and it was so chilly. The girls and I went riding while the guys went golfing. Now, mind you, riding trail at a public stable is quite different from riding your own horse. But just getting back to something that gave me such enjoyment at one time was so overwhelming. I had forgotten how much I loved the rhythm of a horses gait, the smell of the leather and horse scent mixing together, how much riding put me exactly where I was at the moment. And I feel sad that I have let go of something so simple that just plain made me happy. But re-discovering something about yourself can be quite a powerful thing.
Had I not attended the San Francisco Discovery Workshop with my daughter, Chelsie, at the beginning of May, I might not have realized just how important this "horse out of harness" idea is to me. Rick Chapman gave us a homework assignment before the start of the workshop. The idea was to bring a self-portrait (not necessarily a picture of ourselves) of who we are or where we are, right now at this moment. I immediately knew that, creatively, I wanted to be that "horse out of harness" right now. So I incorporated that idea into my self-portrait. I am not quite there yet, but I am on the path and I am aware of every step and rhythm to the journey.
The friends I made, the connections to others who are finding their way too, the paths that we all tread in San Francisco, have made me feel that we are ALL about to break loose, throw off the bridles of fear and the saddles of others' opinions and most importantly find our stride right past those boundaries that have been holding us back.
Beyond teaching us a way to connect with our photo subjects as well as ourselves, Me Ra, Brian, Rick and Garrett taught us to throw off the things that are holding us back and to trust ourselves in our own direction. In short, they opened the gate, removed the harness and said "Go see where this leads you and run towards it for all your worth!"